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WTF Haiti

Maybe Haiti really is cursed.  I mean, with a history of poverty, political unrest, and then the devastating Earthquake, one might get it in their head that there was some malicious overseer pointing the finger at the aggrieved Caribbean nation.  But forget Pat Robertson and all his racist nonsense about devil worship.

(Although just to play along for a moment, if one cosmic entity answered the call and led a people to a bloody and near-impossible victory over centuries of slavery and colonialism, while the other condemns them to poverty, corruption, war, and earthquakes, I’d personally be throwing in my lot with Lucifer.)

But back to reality.  If the earthquake, on top of all of Haiti’s other numerous problems wasn’t enough, it was followed by the flood of transracial adoptions with white Americans rushing in with their savior complexes to practically kidnap children, and wrench them not only from their homes, but inevitably their cultures and identities, too.

Then hey, while we’re in the midst of saying “fuck you” to an entire country, let’s have Wyclef Jean – a goddamn musician who probably knows about as much about Haitian politics as a mushroom – run for President.

And isn’t this the same guy who was conducting “free benefit concerts”, only to use his charity foundation’s money to pay himself for doing them? This is the guy who would attempt to run for president in a country with a history of political corruption? Oh, but wait, WAIT – just to make things interesting, let’s put him up against another musician who goes by the Moniker “Sweet Mickey”.

Seriously, what the fuck is going on?

But thankfully, Wyclef’s dumb ass was denied eligibility to run in the 2010 Presidential Elections, for lack of residency.  Nevermind that he doesn’t speak either of the country’s two official languages, doesn’t know their politics from a horse’s ass, and was stupid and self-important enough in all of his American celebrity to think that he could be the leader of a country besieged by the entire spectrum of domestic issues.

All I’ve got to say to that is…phew, good lookin’ out, Lucifer.

The Burden of Godheval

I’m writing this for the oh, I don’t know, 3.5 people who actually follow this blog (the point-five is a shout-out to all my spam bots out there!)

Godheval, obviously, is an alias.  But it’s not just a name, or a hat that I wear, it’s a state of mind.  One that is fueled by an intense amount of hyper-analysis, cynicism, and damn near misanthropy.  I am idealist, and as such I have all sorts of lofty ideas and dreams for the world and its possibilities.  Most of these are, and will remain mere dreams.  I spend a lot of time talking about racism – particularly whiteness and white supremacy – because those are things that I regard as major obstacles to not just the social and political well-being of “me and mine”, or even all people of color, but all people in the United States, and elsewhere in the world as well.  Yes, it’s that big of a deal.

It – the subjects, that is, not my talking about them – such a source of divisiveness, that it is enough to put at odds people who see eye to eye on just about every other political point.  The big “R”, the big elephant in the room, that only some people have the privilege to ignore.  But in a way, that is a privilege that I envy.  It would free up so much of my brain space if I didn’t have to think or talk about this shit, ever.  Trouble is…that would require it to go away, and since that’s not going to happen anytime soon, I need to free up my brain space on my own.

I talk about politics because, and in particular U.S. politics, for their ability to – quite literally – shape the world.  But the more I talk about it, the more I think about it, the more I recognize it for what it is: a game of social engineering, thought engineering, manipulation.  I don’t mean this in the woo-woo conspiracy sense, because it’s not as convoluted as all of that.  It’s really right there, on the surface, plain as day for anyone to observe if they choose to recognize it. Democrats, Republicans, whoever – they’re all cut from the same cloth.  That is, the cloth of the old, detached, financial and political elites that have run this country, if not the world, forever.  I’m not talking about any New or Old World Orders, but rather something more abstract, a vein of thinking and behaving that has driven perhaps every person who has ever desired power.  It’s what Machiavelli was talking about in The Prince – just the motions that one has to go through if they are to dominate others.

But these ideas – no, memes – are much older than Machiavelli.  Those of us who are actively interested and even involved in politics are critical of those who are apathetic, who don’t vote, because they “neglect their own power” or whatever such nonsense.  But the truth is, that whether they do it knowingly or not, the apathetic, the non-voters, have withdrawn themselves from the endless game – a game where the rest of us are mere pawns.  I envy their apathy.  And in burying my head in the sand of late, I have attempted to emulate it.  Problem for me is that I care – about people, about society, about more things than I have room in my head or my heart to contain all at once.  So the only way to fake apathy is to completely withdraw, to ignore everything that is happening around me.

While Godheval is an alias, and a state of mind as I say, it is also an integral part of who I am.  But it is not ALL that I am.  And the trouble is that Godheval is not too keen on sharing brain space.  He dominates.  When he takes the stage, it as the expense of my regular, more humble, and simpler self.  The self that likes to spend time with his family, or write less cynical things, or watch funny TV shows, or to, quite simply, just “be”.  Godheval is noise and rage and tension.  And for the past few months I have needed some peace and quiet – not around me, but inside of me.  Because Godheval is a part of who I am, it’s not like all that stuff goes away.  Of course I still care, and of course I still have bouts of righteous anger, but by not engaging “Godheval” fully, I am able to mitigate all that noise and rage and tension.

Because it’s just plain exhausting.

So I hope you can understand, you 3.5 people (I know there are more, I’m just being a self-deprecating jerk) who diligently read my words and actually (really?) give a damn about what I say here, and who allow me to think that maybe it’s not all for nothing.  I value you all more than you know, so I felt a need to explain to you this long-term hiatus of mine.  Truth be told, I don’t even know when it will end – if it will end.  It might be a situation where I occasionally tap into “him”, say my peace in a quick blast of noise and rage, then go back to my normal life, but only once ever three months.

I mean, the ideal would be to find some sort of happy medium – and I emphasize the word “happy” because ruminating on all this race and political shit also comes at the expense of happiness.  If I could find some balance, some way to effectively compartmentalize Godheval and my other “normal” self, then maybe the productivity of each would not have to be mutually exclusive.  I’m still trying to figure it out.  If this blog falls into even greater obscurity as a result, then that is the price I will have to pay for my personal peace of mind.

So that’s my story.  Thanks for reading it, and everything else, too.

Peace out for now.

Marketing the Black/White Dichotomy

This is me, sighing.

Maybe this is another case of me being “hypersensitive“, but so be it. If you’re a white person or a particularly assimilated person of color, then you’ll probably think this is a rather harmless video.

You may think it’s funny. Hilarious, even.

If you’re a person of color with even an iota of militancy, or hell, if you’re me then this commercial probably makes you cringe, or just plain annoys you.

But perhaps you’re not entirely sure why. So I’ll tell you why it irritates me, and maybe my explanation will make something click for you.

First of all, it’s cultural appropriation.  Which means that an element of a given culture is taken and used outside of its intended context – worse yet, in blatant opposition to the intended context.

From Wikipedia:

Cultural appropriation is the adoption of some specific elements of one culture by a different cultural group. It describes acculturation or assimilation, but can imply a negative view towards acculturation from a minority culture by a dominant culture. It can include the introduction of forms of dress or personal adornment, music and art, religion, language, or social behavior. These elements, once removed from their indigenous cultural contexts, may take on meanings that are significantly divergent from, or merely less nuanced than, those they originally held.

Hip-hop, and rap in particular, by no measure of historical revisionism or denial of their contributions, is undoubtedly an African-American cultural product.

This, however, does not mean that it belongs exclusively to African-Americans, or that no one else can use it.  The rule, though, is that it should be used in the spirit in which it was intended.  That is, as an expression of positivity, uplift, counter-establishment, or justified anger towards historic and lasting inequality and/or injustice.

An Alan Wake Review

Alan WakeAlan Wake achieves much of what it set out to do.  In terms of atmosphere – keeping me on edge throughout the entire game – I don’t know if it’s ever been done better.

Technically – the play mechanics, game balance, what they did with light and shadows – it was brilliant. The writing was stellar, too – some of the best I’ve experienced.

But the plot, for all it seemed to promise from the start, did not deliver in the end.  I’m not even entirely sure what happened at the end.  I suppose I should’ve been wary from the beginning when Wake quoted Stephen King about how a good horror story never reveals the nature of the threat.

Had the “dark presence” just been some force with no explanation, or even a very vague one, that would’ve been fine.  But Alan Wake told us a lot about the nature of the threat, unfolding several separate but related story threads that it never tied together at the end.

It was plain anti-climactic.  If the developers never intended to reveal the threat, then they shouldn’t have led us into thinking that they would.

All that said, would I recommend Alan Wake?  Absolutely, but only for the sake of gameplay and atmosphere.  If you’re expecting a satisfying story or resolution, you may be sorely disappointed.

20 Reasons for Escapism

I haven’t been blogging on a regular basis lately because just using the internet opens the floodgates to all sorts of infuriating things going on in the world.  So I’ve been playing video games, writing fiction, and watching various TV shows – to provide myself a temporary (always only temporary) respite from the burden of being “aware”.  Aware of what?  Well, the list below is of 20 things going on in the world that are pissing me off, making me sad, frustrated, or feeling hopeless.  A mere 20 reasons for escapism out of hundreds.  In no ranking order:

  1. BP CEO saying that the Deepwater Horizon Oil Spill is relatively tiny compared to the size of the ocean. By that logic, someone could argue that the over a million people killed in a war built on a false pretext is tiny compared to the 6 billion people in the world.  Oh, wait…
  2. SB 1070 – more popularly known as the “Arizona Immigration bill”
  3. Arizona banning ethnic studies
  4. Texas conservatives working to revise history along Biblical/American exceptionalist/racist lines in textbooks
  5. Corporations authorized to buy U.S. elections after the Citizens United vs. Federal Elections Commission case
  6. The surge of people “tweeting” and “microblogging” about nonsense while remaining dormant on things that matter
  7. People wasting their time talking about Jay-Z is a devil-worshiping Freemason.  Even if he is, who cares? There are bigger things to worry about.
  8. Republicans and Democrats both screwing the public through bankrupt policy, while continuing to trick people into thinking there’s any substantive difference between them.
  9. The fact that legally, BP may only be obligated to pay no more than $75 million in damages, which doesn’t even begin to cover it, and that they’re fighting even that.  You want to know what’s “tiny”?  $75 million compared to the hundreds of billionsPDF that BP makes every year
  10. Open racism coming back in style
  11. The mainstream media continuing to report on sensationalist bullshit, rather than covering the stuff that really matters – the corporate version of #6
  12. Omar al-Bashir “winning” the election in Sudan, in spite of being convicted of war crimes and genocide by the U.N.
  13. People chasing conspiracy theories, while doing nothing about evil acts being committed every day out in the open
  14. How perfectly the “divide and conquer” social strategy is continuing to work
  15. All this talk of Iran having nuclear weapons, while no one says anything to Israel
  16. The betrayed promise of “change” from President Obama
  17. How the people around me don’t know and don’t seem to care about what’s going on in the world
  18. Facebook’s new privacy policy violations
  19. Obama authorizing the targeted killing of a U.S. Citizen, setting a dangerous precedent
  20. How people are pawns of their respective political parties, rather than thinking critically as individuals

So now, if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to go play some Torchlight, as an alternative to shooting myself in the head…