I Don’t Get You
Lately I’ve been feeling more out of touch with people than usual, and usually I feel quite detached. I’ve been having this sense that I just “don’t get” people, that I don’t understand their motives or their vision in many situations, don’t share their interests or their dreams, and that I generally have some sort of rogue ideology that flies in the face of their sensibilities. None of this is intentional, for the most part, except for those cases where I intend to challenge the status quo or shake things up by getting people to think about things differently.
I was watching a friend’s video and I couldn’t help but think the whole time: What is the point of this?. I didn’t get it. Maybe I wasn’t supposed to. And it is exactly these kinds of things that I don’t get in general. Is it because I am often mulling over teleological concerns that I must find a point or a purpose in even small things, while other people do things just for their own sakes, with no purpose in mind at all? I sometimes consider going out, only to hesitate as I think: “And do what?”, a question that invariably leads me to going nowhere as I remember that this city apparently does not cater to my particular interests. Although I’ve gotten better at this, and have learned to enjoy going out and wandering the city for no reason at all – often to find things to do on a whim – I feel I am no closer to bridging the gap between myself and the vast majority of the population.